Dear Financial Samurais,
You know what’s truly frightening? Perhaps shorting Amazon and watching it go up 100%? Nah, that’s nothing compared to staying at home by yourself to take care of your newborn for the first time. All I could think about about was making sure he doesn’t get hurt or worse on my watch. Come back home soon honey!
You would think life is a piece of cake being a stay at home and work from home dad with a stay at home spouse. But I went through some intense lower back pain for the past couple of weeks due to stress, anxiety, and fear. The last time I went through this type of pain was during the dotcom collapse between 2000 – 2003 because I was constantly fearful of losing my job. After reading Dr. Sarno’s, Healing Back Pain, I became back pain free for 14 years until now.
So what’s the issue today? It’s simply adapting to the loss of 100% freedom, worry about my son’s visual impairment which may inhibit him to keep up with school work, and the stress of keeping up my posting schedule on Financial Samurai.
Something has got to give. And that something is my back. Chronic pain is the mind’s way of distracting you from emotional stress.
I’ll get used to my loss of freedom. Not having a day job for over five years made me spoiled and soft. Posting less frequently is a simple solution for Financial Samurai. After all, each post reaches a much larger audience now due to its growth.
I’m mostly worried about my son’s future if his eyes make it more difficult for him to keep up in school e.g. finish reading assignments, playing sports etc. I also worry about bullies, his self-esteem, and a myriad of other things that come with having an impairment and being a parent.
I’m keeping the faith his vision will get better as he ages. So far his gross motor skills and his vision are on track. Ophthalmologists say eyes don’t fully develop until about 2-3 years old, and most parents have told me their children’s nystagmus do get better from when they were a baby.
All we can do is always be there for him through every single challenge. We won’t know exactly how well he can see until he tells us at around 4 or 5 years old we he can read the Snellen eye chart.
My chronic back pain was a reminder that health is more important than wealth. It doesn’t matter how much money you have if you can’t take care of your physical AND mental happiness. Do not be embarrassed to seek help, especially for mental health issues. Do not be afraid to talk about the things that are keeping you under.
After leaving working in 2012, my plantar fasciitis, TMJ, teeth grinding, and tennis elbow all went away. I had literally forgot what pain free living felt like. If you’re suffering from chronic pain, please read Dr. Sarno’s book, and please know that work stress is killing you.