Longing To Take A Break But My Conscience Won’t Allow
All I want to do is nothing, if only just for a little while. I’ve got 30 days to relax until a decision needs to be made whether to jump back into the work force or give this entire entrepreneurial endeavor a full go. Why? I’ve decided to take a sabbatical, and I might never come back!
Although I’ve got 30 days to decide, I’ve really been thinking about this moment ever since I launched Financial Samurai three years ago. The first words in my About page talk about how money stopped being a driving factor. Instead, the elusive balanced lifestyle is what keeps me going.
When we have enough money, I argue that we stop caring so much about making more money anymore. Many people disagree with this statement and feel that having money makes you crave for more. Perhaps it’s the reason why some multi-millionaires and billionaires still cheat even though they’ve got enough money to last several lifetimes!
I’m not sure, but perhaps I’m blessed with the realization of what enough is.
LESS MONEY, MORE FREE TIME
If I decide to never go back to work, I’ll be taking an enormous pay cut. Most would think I’m crazy if they knew the amount, but then simple math will dictate that most would just be pontificating. What I lose in money, I gain in time. Time gets incrementally more valuable as years go by. Two years ago, my neighbor’s wife died. She was 76. Last year, my other neighbor’s husband died. He was 63. Last month, my friend’s mother died of a stroke. She was 72. The other week, Adam Yauch of the Beastie Boys died at 47 from throat cancer.
The average life expectancy is around 80 years old, yet for some reason, all four examples above died earlier than expected. I’m under no illusion that I could contract a serious illness and go by this Christmas. It’s why you’ll see me online at all hours of the day and going to parties till midnight even though I’ve been working for 15 hours. Give me until age 60, and I’ll be happy. Every year beyond 60, I will count my blessings!
With more free time and enough money, is now the time to start a family? Such befuddling things I wonder.
MAKING THE VARIOUS INCOME BUFFERS COUNT IS HARD
Part of the ironic benefit of regularly saving 70% of my after-tax income for over a decade is that if I take a 70% after tax pay cut, my life won’t change a bit! Despite the belief that my lifestyle won’t change, I’m sure I’ll have more stress given such a large income buffer will be eliminated.
I won’t know what it’s like to potentially tap my savings or passive income buffer because I’ve never touched it since college. I’ve always just relied on 30% of my after tax income to live. Spending passive income is one thing. Reducing savings is another.
Just thinking about touching passive income to survive makes me feel a little queasy. In fact, thinking about using one buffer up in online income to live feels like I’m going in reverse. Online income is more than enough to maintain my standard of living, but I just don’t want to touch the income at all. The money would be better spent re-invested in the company rather than paying for my food, clothing, and shelter.
IS IT OK TO JUST BUM AROUND AND DO NOTHING FOR A WHILE?
I remember the days when we were kids. We could just lounge around the pool for 3 months during the summer and be bums. We’d have our parents cook us meals, wash our clothes, and pay our bills. Whenever we had a problem or a question, our parents would help out and know the answer. As we grow older, that safety net goes away….. for most at least.
Once we are financially secure, all the pressure we experience is self-imposed pressure. Given I expect a lot from myself, the pressure dial is always close to, or on maximum. I have the ability to wind down for a day, but afterward, I start feeling like a non-productive member of society and will probably work harder the next day to make up for the day of rest!
I long to be a lifestyle blogger who just travels the world, blogs about his adventures, has no responsibilities nor dependents. I just feel guilty about not maximizing the potential I know I have. I feel guilty for not trying harder so that I can provide for my family and for my parents if and when they need me.
If you are living a life of leisure who lives paycheck to paycheck online or offline, please share your wisdom of how you eradicated your guilt. If you’ve retired early, please share the same. Help me shatter my belief because I know many will disagree with what contribution and guilt means.
Is it OK to be selfish and start taking more than I give? Is it OK to join the 47% who don’t pay any federal income taxes anymore due to a lower income or a large deferral of taxable income? Perhaps I can join the Occupy protesters and fight against those who do not believe in equality. Is it OK to sit back and relax for a couple years? I hope so. It’s just so hard to do even though it requires little effort!
THE COUNTDOWN BEGINS
My sabbatical isn’t a countdown to freedom, because unless I’m living in a prison cell, I will always be free. My sabbatical is a time where I need to find out what’s next. I’ve listed eight things I plan to do in my announcement post on Untemplater, and I’m hoping that I will execute them all.
For those of you who’ve taken a sabbatical, I’d love to hear from you here or on Untemplater what you did, and how you felt after you took your sabbatical. What do you regret not doing or doing while on sabbatical? Any tricks you have for making yourself not work on sabbatical and feel OK with it?
Please read: “Taking A Sabbatical And Potentially Never Coming Back” and let me know your thoughts.
Photo: Fog over the Golden Gate Bridge on a sunny SF day. SD