Since I can remember, I’ve been made fun of and criticized for trying to be the best at whatever thing it was I was interested in at the time. My AP History teacher in high school was amazing and I would sit in the front of the class engrossed by all the stories he told about the Civil War and how he got to be an extra in Matthew Broderick and Denzel Washington’s 1989 movie, Glory.
At the end of the year, Mr. Stanton was kind enough to give me the AP History Award for most outstanding student. I was honored, but surprised because I wasn’t a great student and this was my only academic award I ever received. I think he just appreciated someone always attentively listening instead of dozing off like some of my other classmates.
But I disappointed Mr. Stanton in the end because I didn’t try harder. When I got the award, a couple classmates made me feel like a loser. They said I was a dork for liking history so much. As a result of such feedback, I decided not to study a lot for the AP History placement test, which could have given me college credit if I scored a 3 or better out of 5.
When Mr. Stanton enthusiastically asked how I did once he knew the scores were out, I didn’t want to tell him because I only scored a 2. I was not the most outstanding student he had envisioned and I felt horrible for letting him down.
“Sam, don’t worry about the exam,” replied Mr. Stanton. “It’s hard to remember everything in history anyway. But if you remember one thing, remember to never let anybody keep you from going for what you want. Thanks for always attending my classes and playing a good game of Risk!”
After Mr. Stanton’s talk, I began feeling angry that I let people negatively affect something I cared about. The battle was on between trying to be the best, not wanting to be a disappointment to others, and never letting anybody keep me from doing what I enjoyed again. Perhaps you’ve experienced a similar battle growing up and as an adult today.